Third revision surgery.. I don’t want to do any more.

Now I really feel sorry to the doctor too, so I don’t want to do any more. My double eyelid journey that started in May 2003.. sob sob.. I hope it ended with the third revision surgery last Saturday.. I had the buried suture method in May 2003.. and maybe after a month, one side came undone, so I had it redone in August that year. But.. the left side came undone again.. so I just lived with it for a year.. These days, my eyes really looked so mismatched I couldn’t stand it.. I had to draw my eyeliner unevenly too So I made a big decision, went back, and had revision surgery again. This time I did minimal incision, and it looked like they cut and stitched in two places. The line is pretty.. but now that it’s the third time, I’m not even doing warm/cold compresses well.. Last week it was so hot that I didn’t stay home, and with those eyes I went around department stores and wherever else, looking for places with air conditioning.. Anyway, the doctor kept saying he was actually sorry it had come undone and that he would redo it anytime.. But because he was so kind, I feel sorry instead.. that’s how I feel..-_-;; Anyway, I do like it now.. but it’s a bit thick.. With the buried suture method before, my right eye turned out so pretty and there was no scar, so nobody knew I’d had surgery.. But whenever I took photos, only one side looked like a dog’s eye was stuck on there.;; It came out like that, and everyone else said it was fine, but I was the only one.. since I spent money, I felt like it should be noticeable.. So I was upset and did it again.. Now that I’ve had an incision, it’s definitely obvious even when I close my eyes.. It hasn’t even been a week yet though.. and the bruising is severe too, only on the left side.. I really hope it goes well this time.. and that my lingering attachment to double eyelids disappears too..