I had surgery..

I paid 250 for my eyes and nose bridge reduction, and for the tip I had ear cartilage inserted.. Today is day 3. For the eyes, they do it under local anesthesia, and aside from the fact that the anesthetic injection really hurt when it was given, it wasn't that scary. But the nose.. I really never want to do it again They used pain-free anesthesia, so while I was coming out of the general anesthesia.. with consciousness only and the surgery still going on, I thought if I wasn't going to wake up anyway, I wished they would just do it under sleep anesthesia, please. They were shaving down my high nasal bridge (I’m entirely East Asian except for my nose), and every time they shaved, my head thudded loudly;; I had no idea how jealous I was of people who just insert something inside the nose to raise it; I kept opening my eyes during the surgery, and the doctor told me to close them; he asked what if something got in my eyes, why did I keep opening them; but I kept opening them and seeing the nurse, the doctor, and the thread stitching up my nose--;;;;; Ah, no matter how the surgery turns out, I never want to go on the operating table again, (I decided I would never badmouth people who say they became prettier after nose, eye, and chin surgery again. I think they have reason to get that kind of reward==;; Honestly, I won't tear healthy living flesh again; I don't even want to squeeze pimples anymore;) I regret it because my eyes look like a raccoon.. The nose seems like it will be okay once the swelling goes down, but I'm worried the line on the eyes is too thick. I used to hear that my eyes were pretty pretty often.. they were just too small, so I got epicanthoplasty and double eyelid surgery. But the line is so, so thick.. about 8 mm? My original hidden double eyelid was about 4 mm, so I was hoping for that kind of feel (though the two sides are a little different;), does it stay this thick? I really hate it.. I miss my original eyes.. what should I do My face is all puffy, there are bruises around it, and the double eyelids are so dark they don't look like mine anymore.. On top of that, my skin tone got dull; I used to be rather pale, but now it's yellowish.. I've really turned into a weird-looking mess. That's my biggest worry. What if later people say, 'Why did you pay money just to ruin your face like that?' I feel like my heart will collapse, then what?? The nose seems fine.. but the eyes.. I even think maybe I was greedy for no reason.. Before the surgery.. when people looked at my eyes, nose, and mouth one by one, even if none of them were especially beautiful on their own, I used to get told I looked pretty or cute wherever I went.. Now my expression looks harsh, the swelling is not going down at all, I look like a raccoon, and I have to go to school in March. I'm so depressed that rumors will spread that I got surgery for nothing, and that I got uglier than before, and people will say, 'If that is what she looks like after surgery, how ugly must she have been before?'