Day 5, I’m regretting it more and more ㅡㅡ;

For years I kept going on and on about getting a nose job, and this time I finally got it done. It’s day 5 now, and there’s still a lot of that beast-like look left, and before surgery, when I went outside I was often told I looked like a high school student, but now, somehow, I look like a woman in her mid-20s.. Maybe because the area between my eyebrows is too high and that beast-like look remains, the cute impression I had before is all gone My nose got longer too, I’m going crazy. I did it without my boyfriend knowing, and I’m meeting my boyfriend in a month, so I’m worried, sigh.. He’ll think, oh, she got her nose done while we didn’t see each other.. But if everyone is going to know anyway, I wish I had at least gotten a bit prettier, but far from becoming totally prettier, I just look older, and it’s obvious I had surgery, I’m going crazy It’s only been 5 days, so that’s why, right? There’s also a lot of swelling;; I had the nasal bridge and nasal tip done (for the tip, I don’t even know if it was really done or not, it’s completely blunt and they made it long downward). Once the swelling goes down, will my pre-surgery impression come back somewhat? I feel like I’m going to get depressed