Other people seem to turn out pretty just fine..

All I can say is that I really want to die.. I had it done on Saturday.. What is this.. My facial features are generally on the small side, so if just one thing, whether my eyes, nose, or mouth, suddenly gets big, my face looks creepy. So when I got double eyelid surgery, I planned to make an inner double eyelid. But what on earth... they said an in-line wouldn't work.. Okay.. it's very different from what I expected, but still, well.. that's what I thought.. But they kept saying the double eyelid wouldn't show.. and kept raising the line higher and higher.. I said in my own way that I wanted an inner double eyelid.. but instead the doctor was firm about it.. So I thought, okay.. that doctor must have operated on so many people.. and I accepted the doctor's opinion as much as possible.. At that incredibly high line, I pleaded and pleaded and lowered it just a tiny bit.. After the surgery ended.. I was in the recovery room and looked in the mirror.. I really want to die.. You might think it looks strange because of swelling, but the line itself is messy and has no shape... I've also visited this community a lot, so even right after surgery, even when very swollen, I could quickly tell whether the line was pretty or not.. I can't believe it. I can't believe I ended up like this.. How am I supposed to live my life from now on.. I'm so devastated..