This is really hard. Revision surgery, full-incision ptosis correction

About 7 months ago, I had major work done: full-incision double eyelid surgery, epicanthoplasty, and ptosis correction. The swelling went down more easily than I expected, so I thought it turned out well and was really happy. But people kept saying it looked strange. As time passed, it became uneven and it was driving me crazy. So I gathered courage and went back, and they immediately said let’s do revision surgery, so I had it done right away. I was on the operating table for 1 hour. They said revision surgery is easy and 30 minutes would be enough, so I agreed. But I spent the whole hour with cold sweat in my hands, trembling. Maybe because it was revision surgery, there was none of the back-and-forth conversation like during the first surgery (kindly guiding me through it). Whether the injection was going in or whether it would sting, they just operated without saying anything. I just received the surgery silently, as quiet as a mouse. That silence was so scary and horrible that throughout the surgery I had chills several times. Trembling. Cold sweats and so on.. I felt so scared that if this goes wrong again, I would never want to have surgery again. When I came down from the operating table, my legs were shaking.. When I came out, I saw several people who seemed to have come for revision surgery,, Ah.. I started wondering if I’d really been lured in.. Even though this is a place that is said to be fairly well-known here, I’m really very disappointed,, I don’t even want to think about it, and when I see my swollen face, the words please.. please.. just come out on their own.. It was extremely hard during the surgery too. After surgery, looking at my very swollen face, I’m really upset.. This time, please let it turn out well......