Hello! Just been lurking~ so I thought I’d post once.. hehe

Hello~ I’ve already booked my surgery for September 5. I’m getting my eyes and nose done ^ ^; My nose bridge is so low.. they said they’d raise it 4 mm, but I have no idea how much that will actually be Even during consultations last year, I heard 4 mm from several places.. sigh; For my eyes, I’m getting epicanthoplasty and double eyelid surgery~ I asked for an outer line.. Rather than looking gentle and intellectual, I want a look that still seems surgical even if it’s obvious (to be honest, if you suddenly get double eyelids, everyone notices, right hehe) I want a smart, sharp kind of impression. So I’m going with an outer fold.. They said I don’t have fat in my eyes, but my skin is a bit thick, so I’m slightly worried. I like eyes like Ayumi Hamasaki’s ^ ^; Cat eyes.. Anyway, the truth is I’m not writing to talk about that surgery plan; I think I set the surgery date for August 14, and at that time I was like, “How am I going to wait until the 5th? I want to do it quickly!” But then I set a D-day count on my phone, and as I watched it, the numbers kept dropping faster and faster; before I knew it, it was the 5th... so after just four more nights, it’s surgery day I’m so nervous, really.. I’m doing it in Daegu ^ ^ Really, until yesterday I was fine~ Even when I read posts here, I was calm. But suddenly it’s starting to feel real; Just reading the posts makes my whole body shake. The fear of whether the result will really turn out well- In one place they quoted 1.50 million won for just the nose, but somewhere else they said the tip should be lowered too and quoted 2.50 million won... So I ended up worrying for nothing (I booked at 1.50 million) Honestly, this is a surgery I chose while standing at the edge of a cliff, my last choice. More than simply wanting to be pretty, the desire to make a living is acting more strongly here; It really is the very last! I poured in my very last money.. If the surgery fails, I honestly don’t know how I’m supposed to live on (- -) from here on out.. I really hope it goes well... sigh -_ This kind of anxiety before surgery, is something everyone probably feels, right?? Am I the only one making a fuss.. sigh sigh sigh-