I don’t think I could do it twice..

Yesterday I had my eyes and nose done together.. At the clinic, they said my eyes were originally big.. but because they were drooping, they looked small... So they didn’t do canthoplasty, and the doctor said we should make the double eyelids large, so I had them made large... As for my nose, the doctor said, “The bridge of your nose really is low..” That’s what he said,, He said my nasal bones were originally on the wide side too... But because my skin is thin, if it’s made too high, it would be very obvious... He suggested putting in 5 mm... I was worried it might be too low, so right before surgery I asked how 7 mm would be... He said he’d take care of it, so I trusted him and left it to him.. I thought I’d fall asleep under sedation.... but my mind was wide awake. They said if I strained my eyes, they would swell and bruise, so I paid attention and endured it well.. The problem was`~~ the nose surgery... After the local anesthesia went in.. I could feel everything, the sensation of the silicone being shoved in... Suddenly the doctor said, “It will resonate:” I wondered what that meant... Finally~~ he started hammering away hard at my protruding nasal bones. Then it seemed like he was touching and shaping them with his hands to build up the nasal bridge.... The crunching sounds of bone breaking and being set, and the pain.. I thought I was going to die.. He hammered and adjusted both sides... I mean,, how could I not tense up? Thanks to that, after I had worked so hard to relax and endure it, my eyes tensed up, bled, bruised, and swelled.... Right now it’s a real sight... Even just making the double eyelids large would have made the swelling and bruising worse... On top of that, the nose surgery made it even worse/// I’ve been diligently doing cold compresses yesterday and today, but... Even when I look at my own face, it’s scary and upsetting.. I just hope my eyes and nose come out pretty.. It’s too horrible to ever do again.... Swelling and bruises.. Go away quickly!!!