One side of my non-incisional double eyelid came undone, so second revision surgery~

Early December last year? I had epicanthoplasty + non-incisional double eyelid surgery One side looked natural, but the other side was a total monster-_- So I was devastated, and sure enough, my eyes became uneven;; Then the eye that had looked natural came undone So in March? April? I had revision surgery, but it came undone again;; In short, they became mismatched~ What should I do~ I thought I should at least get a consultation, so I went to the clinic yesterday, and they said since I was there I should just get it done before leaving, which freaked me out+_+ It was my 3rd surgery, and maybe because it was done so suddenly? I was totally trembling ㄷㄷㄷ I kept telling the nurse, 'I’m scared~ I’m nervous~' lol I had sedation anesthesia, The two things I hate most when getting double eyelid surgery... 1. Getting dizzy and going go-go into the 4th dimension~ 2. The feeling when they pull hard with thread like fishing line? -_- (ugh) The director said, "Do you like the left line now? Do you like it? Do you like..." and the voice got quieter and quieter as I went to the 4th dimension lol It was just because of the pressure? when they pulled the thread; there was no pain Right now the swelling is intense, so I’m wearing horn-rimmed glasses and avoiding my dad, but I think it’ll look pretty once the swelling goes down +_+ I have a good feeling~ I only talked about useless stuff~ Everyone, become prettier^^