I had surgery today

I went to the hospital at around 9 this morning- filled out various forms- changed clothes, and got onto the operating table around 9:30, I had no thoughts at all right up until just before I got on the operating table, but once I actually got on it, my whole body was trembling, The nurse explained as much as she could, and helped me feel reassured, but when they tied my arms and all, I seriously thought I was going crazy, The doctor came and said he would make sure it didn't hurt, and told me to relax, but I must have been squeezing my eyes shut so hard lol After a while the surgery started, and I'm sure they had given me sedation first and then local anesthesia, so why did it hurt this much? I didn't even know where or how it hurt, I just kept saying it hurt, got irritated at the doctor asking why it hurt so much, and screamed that it hurt throughout the whole surgery, I was really being so dramatic, I was so embarrassed after the surgery was all over, I was lying in the recovery room with an ice pack, and the doctor came and injected Botox into my chin, and I screamed again,, I wonder how they even managed to do today's surgery, Still, maybe because the nurse beside me held my hand throughout the surgery, I felt a lot more reassured- The doctor also kept talking to me about this and that, trying to calm me down, and I was so grateful,, I came home, and my eyes don't seem that swollen, but because they made a 1 cm incision, and the doctor also opened the medial epicanthoplasty as much as possible, it's no joke, I heard it hurts a lot when they remove the stitches too, I'm feeling so frustrated,, I just want to disappear for a while~,lol Oh right, the doctor told me absolutely not to smoke, but after I came home I really couldn't hold back and smoked a few cigarettes, so I'm scared something might go wrong,, Surely nothing will go wrong, right?