My eyes won’t close

Hello... I’ve already had eye surgery 3 times now At first I had buried suture, but my eyes gradually came undone, so I had an incision method. The clinic told me to do incisional ptosis correction and medial canthoplasty, so I did it, but at first it was awful (one side was completely lifted, and one side was an inner double eyelid) So 6 months later, I had revision surgery again... But the lifted eye went really deep inward, and the other side became a full outline double eyelid, so this time, after 2 years, I had revision surgery again... At the same place, this is already my 3rd incisional surgery But the side that was lifted is still sunken way in, and on the side where the incision was done, now my eye won’t close Even when I lower my gaze, my eye won’t lower... My eye won’t close either... Could this be because they cut away too much eyelid, so it won’t close?? I heard that once it won’t close, it will never come down... My eyes are still uneven, one side is lifted, one side won’t close, and my eyes are a total mess... This can’t be fixed, right??? If I’m going to have surgery again, I have to wait another 6 months, and it will cost money again... I feel like I’m dying.... If only my eye would at least close... Even when I keep my eyes open, it pulls, so I can feel some pulling toward my eyebrow This will absolutely never come down, right??? How am I supposed to live now Ah, I really feel like I’m going crazy day by day If you want photos, I’ll upload them.... Please answer me It’s been 20 days since this revision surgery...