My double eyelid doesn’t fold at all... I feel like I’m going to die.

One eye has completely settled, to the point where you wouldn’t know I had surgery.. but on the other side, when I open my eye naturally, the double eyelid doesn’t fold at all.. The area that had inflammation is still red and swollen.. but I don’t think it’s because of that.. A double eyelid is supposed to fold in.. but when I open my eye, it just stretches out flat... Has this come undone?? On top of that, the flesh under the double-eyelid line on this side is bulging out like a monster and it’s killing me, and now when I open my eye there’s no double eyelid at all.. The two sides are beyond uneven; I’ve completely become like that “fan lady”.. The doctor told me to come back after 3 months.. said we’d see the situation then... Then.. am I supposed to live like this monster for 3 months.. I need to find a job.. Even if I get surgery again then, since it would be a second revision, I feel like my eyes almost won’t close.. They cut everything away with no extra eyelid skin left.. are they planning to operate again when the time comes? I really want to die.. This clinic only does incisional surgery... then.. they probably can’t even do a suture correction on the loosened eye.. if they cut it open and redo it again, I’ll lose my mind.. Ptosis?? They didn’t even do that test, so my eye only opens about halfway Really a total failure.. I’ve become like a rural Vietnamese woman.. More than anything, if I just open one eye comfortably, it completely flattens out, so there’s no double eyelid on only one side and it becomes a glaring eye.. What do I do about this? Do I have to stay shut up in my room like this until 3 months?? I need to earn money What am I supposed to do... I don’t have money to go to another clinic and fix it.. Still, should I at least go for consultations elsewhere?? Other places will probably definitely say it was done wrong and tell me to get revision surgery... Has this come undone?? It’s only been one month since surgery, and for it to come undone this badly... I really think something went wrong... because they cut away too much skin.. The area where my eye had inflammation hasn’t gone down at all and is red and bulging out, and no double eyelid is forming.. I haven’t seen people for a month, and if I have to live like this for two more months, I’m going to go crazy.. I have no money at all.. I need to get a job.. I thought one month would be enough.. I told all the workplaces that contacted me to come in that I wouldn’t go.. I really want to die..