Could this be a symptom of depression?

After surgery.. Sometimes my nose looks upturned.. Sometimes it looks okay. Sometimes I feel like I’m the only one in so much pain, and sometimes I tell myself it’s all part of the healing process.. let’s not act foolish and I laugh and act lively. But then I keep becoming quiet, closing the door, and staying alone. I come into this community and read comments and laugh, but then suddenly I look in the mirror, get choked up, and cry like an idiot... I can’t get my mind under control.. I quit everything I was doing. I’m just shutting myself in at home. Sometimes I go out to eat with a friend, but I have no appetite and it isn’t enjoyable, and I keep talking to my friend only about my nose.. My friend comforts me and says it’s okay, but maybe now it’s annoying, and because I talk too much, maybe it’s bothersome, so they turn away. When I come home, I get choked up again.. When I consult the hospital, I only get very cold and short answers..,, I feel like I should say something when I go to the hospital... But the hospital staff speak so well.. I feel like I end up being persuaded.. Being alone... I just keep crying again.. why do I feel so wronged and sad.. I want to call a depression counseling line and just cry as much as I want.. Even now, I cried for a long time.. my chest feels hollow, like someone who has lost the world... What should I do? I feel like I’m going to die.., I’m so, so sad and it feels like the world is collapsing. I want to go back to before surgery.. Those who feel the same way as I do.. Would you maybe want to meet or talk on the phone and comfort each other? I’m so lonely and scared..