Please help me think this through

It’s been about 6 months since I had double eyelid surgery. I had inner corner canthoplasty + upper corner canthoplasty + full incision. But the scar from the inner corner canthoplasty is really bad (the clinic says that’s because everyone’s skin is different, and... they said I’m the type who scars easily...), and maybe because of the scar, the line changed a lot from the original one. The line at the front corner of my eye disappeared because of the scar. Especially in my left eye, the original line wasn’t kept, and a line formed above it instead, so that became the crease line. And with my left eye, right after the first surgery, when the stitches were removed, the line didn’t settle properly (according to the doctor, with upper corner canthoplasty they tie the muscle, but I seemed to have rubbed my eyes in my sleep and it came loose), so I had surgery again on the day the stitches were removed and had the stitches taken out a few days later. So I think the scar is even worse. I had the upper corner canthoplasty because they said it would show more of my pupils, but the feeling in the two eyes is so different. The right eye feels too pulled, and the left eye just feels normal. The one that feels too pulled is really making me constantly aware of it, so it gives me a headache. And not only can I see my pupils, I feel like even the white above them is showing, which is creepy. The clinic says they’ll do a revision, but I think they need to loosen the right upper corner canthoplasty a bit and redo the left eye so the crease starts properly from the front, but I’m worried whether the line will be set cleanly if I do it again. These days I don’t even want to meet people and I’m depressed to death. Before surgery, even if my eyes were small, they were mine, and I could wash my face and put on makeup however I wanted, but after surgery even that isn’t under my control anymore. What should I do??