I’m Having Surgery Tomorrow... I’m Nervous

Finally, I can’t put it off any longer, and even if I go to more hospitals, the answer seems obvious. Also, in a week or two, I feel like I’ll be pushed back by students who have finished the college entrance exam and won’t be able to get surgery when I want, so I decided right away today... at the 4th hospital I visited, including the previous hospital... I think this really requires a much bigger decision than I expected... It was a nose I was always conscious of because the silicone showed through completely, but maybe because it’s been over 10 years, I still feel regret about losing that awkward height, and I’m even more afraid of what will happen to my nose going forward... If only it hadn’t looked this obvious, I would have just lived with it for the rest of my life,,,, I just hope it doesn’t become a bulbous, wide-open nose...... I’m also scared that 6 months later I won’t be able to stand it and will go get my nasal tip done... sigh.... I really, really regret touching it for no reason... Before the surgery, it was a bit big, which was the flaw, but it was high and smooth. Who knew surgery to make the nasal tip look a little sharper would lead to this result? Now I can’t sleep because I’m worried there’ll be an indentation from the gap between the nasal tip and the end of the silicone... Today, too, the hospital was packed with people... There were students in school uniforms holding their mothers’ hands and getting consultations... I wanted to stop them, but since I don’t know whether there are people whose surgery goes well and lasts a lifetime, I just watched... Anyway, I guess my nose was one that shouldn’t have been touched... I should pray tomorrow’s surgery goes well and hurry to sleep...