My revision double-eyelid surgery is botched, please help me, please

<Before in-out><After in-out surgery 1><After in-out surgery 2>The line is stressing me out so much that it might get confusing, so I’ll leave out the lower posterior canthoplasty + restoration and just talk about this! 10 years ago, I first had incisional inline double-eyelid surgery, and 4 years ago I had an upper canthoplasty because I wanted to raise the line (recommended by the doctor). After the upper canthoplasty, my clean line actually became messy, and like the right eye in the photo before my in-out revision, the inner corner part of the line extended slightly outward, almost like an outline, which stressed me out so much (Once something bothers you, even if others don’t notice it, you see it more clearly yourself..) I couldn’t hold back my desire for the line to show well, so 1 year ago I had revision surgery because I wanted to change the line to an in-out line, but it turned out completely, completely, completely, completely botched.. First of all, it doesn’t suit my eyes at all, and the lines on both sides are asymmetric.. I asked the doctor whether, while changing the line to in-out, the part where the right inner corner line extended slightly outward could also be cleaned up. They said it probably wouldn’t be possible but that they would do their best, but now it has ended up making that part stand out even more.. Only the right inner corner extends too much, almost like an outline, so I got an AS revision 2 weeks ago, but it’s just the same.. I don’t see any signs of improvement The line is completely asymmetric.. I spent so much time visiting clinics and researching online to become prettier, and spent so much money, but my eyes have become worse than before and look burdensome, so I’m so stressed.. It’s worse in person than in photos.. I want to undo the in-out surgery or change it back to inline while also getting rid of the scars a bit. Would that be possible..? I don’t want to do it at the clinic where I had the in-out surgery. Their response is bad, and I don’t trust them Is there anyone like me.. I think I have scar tissue? too, so my eyes seem like an extreme case. Could I please ask for your opinions I hate even looking in the mirror, I don’t take photos, and I can’t look people in the eye..