Day 5 after removal, I came back after taking off the tape

When they took off the tape and showed me the mirror, I thought I was going to faint. I had a total mental breakdown My nasal bridge was originally very low, so after removing the silicone, my nose spread out flat, and the bridge area looks like someone with no nose at all. It’s really a good thing it’s winter; I honestly don’t have the confidence to go out without a mask. They said they would remove the silicone, lower the support strut a little, and use ear cartilage to shape the nasal tip and the boundary area where the silicone had been removed so it wouldn’t look bent, but even so, when I touch the boundary between the area where the silicone was and the nasal tip, it feels sunken. But for me, maybe because they added more cartilage to about half of the whole nose, that part is high, and the other half of my nose is deeply collapsed~ For those who only had silicone removed, how are you all? For me, half of my whole nose is raised, so it looks strange. I thought only the nasal tip would be high, but half of my nose is high with cartilage inside. They said they’ll check my progress after a month, prescribe Rizaben if there’s contracture, do stem cell treatment depending on the symptoms, and for the sunken part of the nasal bridge, they’ll watch the progress more and fat grafting is possible after one month. They said if they do a second and third round, it can be maintained without being absorbed. If I have revision surgery with my own cartilage, I have to wait 6 months. After a month, I’ll at least have to do fat grafting. I can’t live like this. A woman with only half a nose is standing in front of the mirror