I’m worried

My eyes are originally extremely uneven. My right eye is much bigger than my left eye, so even when I first got double eyelid surgery, the doctor intentionally made the lines uneven to match the eye sizes. But now, because the lines are too uneven, it looks too asymmetrical and that’s stressing me out. So I made up my mind to even get revision surgery and went to the hospital yesterday to have the surgery, but you know how the director does the final design right before going in. At that time, he marked it and said it would come out exactly like this line. The line itself was really nice and I liked it, but when the line on the right eye was raised, that eye became too big, so the eye itself looked large. Compared with the left, it even looked like the pupil was enlarged? It’s a bit hard to explain what kind of feeling this is, but should I say it looked a little like someone with strabismus.. I’m not sure if that’s the right expression. Anyway, it looked that way and was so strange that I was worried, so the director said I shouldn’t have surgery in this state and that it would be difficult to expect a good result. He told me to think it over enough and come back when I’m sure, so I put it on hold yesterday and came back The director personally didn’t say he agreed with what I thought, but it also felt like he didn’t completely deny it. He said it was entirely up to my choice.. Staying as I am makes me worry so much about the line asymmetry, but if I have surgery, the eye sizes themselves are asymmetrical. And people around me say I’ll probably regret it if I do it, and that it’ll be a completely different level of problem from what I’m worrying about now What should I do..