I waited 30 years for breast surgery—why did I wait so long?

I am approaching fifty, and next year my son will become an adult. The reason I agonized for 30 years was that I was terribly afraid it would hurt T_T. I work in a field where I meet many celebrities, and when I heard that some had undergone breast surgery while continuing to work without a break, I thought only that they must be tough. Then, through a stylist, I learned that several of those celebrities all came from the same clinic, so I rushed there. Even so, I kept thinking it would hurt, and entered the operating room trembling like an aspen. The doctor was quiet, blunt, and even intimidating, but when I said I was so scared, he offered to play my favorite music by my head until I was anesthetized and told me not to worry because he would make me look beautiful. I was touched being treated alone. After surgery, I realized he was extremely tsundere. When I opened my eyes in the recovery room, I thought I must have died, but although it was clearly the recovery room, my chest did not hurt, so I thought it was a dream. A little later I opened my eyes again, and I was still in the recovery room. While wondering how long the dream would continue, the doctor came in and started talking about sizes and so on. “Is my surgery really over?” “Yes~ You slept for over an hour. Would you like some porridge if you are hungry?” I was bewildered. As soon as the porridge arrived, I found myself sitting bolt upright without even realizing it. Finally, I sat up and looked down at my chest, and I almost cried. “Is this really mine????????” Before I went home, they told me to remove my underwear and look in the mirror. I was so happy that I spontaneously clapped, and wondered, “Is it really possible to raise my arms like this?” No, how could I have agonized over this for 30 years when it did not hurt this much? I scolded my past self. A week later, after having the stitches removed, I tried on the clothes I had desperately wanted to wear as soon as I got home. I was so happy I cried. It was an outfit I had really wanted to wear—a black tube-top dress—but my chest had been so flat that it was impossible to wear without looking pathetic. Now it fit perfectly, even tightly, and that happiness was incredible. Thank you so much, [Doctor A], for solving my 30-year dilemma without any pain. May you live a long and healthy life. My stats: 167 cm, 51 kg, bust circumference 76 cm, breast base width 12.4 cm. Implants: Mentor Boost 320, both sides. Under-breast incision / subfascial / IV sedation = pain-free!!