It has been 1 year since I had lateral philtrum and mouth-corner surgery.... I want to die because of the scars.....

These photos show the knife marks currently left on my lips..... They are photos of the left and right sides, and the last photo is from the day of surgery around July 2017. I had lateral philtrum reduction and mouth-corner lift last July. At the first consultation, the consultant told me, “We are a scarless hospital. You won’t get scars, and unlike other hospitals, we are famous as a scar-free hospital. If you have the surgery, you’ll look younger and prettier........ At first it will be red, then turn white, then disappear. If it takes long, that period is 6 months; for some people, if it’s fast, it takes 2 months.” But.... now that 1 year has passed, all that remains for me is scars...... Looking younger is nonsense,.... sigh..... I spend each day under extreme stress and in tears, and after hiding away for a year, it’s so hard that I’m at least posting this...... For 1 year, I received treatment consistently, and once a week I got laser treatment and injections. I endured those painful scar-tissue injections.... Every time the needle went into the area around my lips, tears streamed down,,,, unbearable pain... It was so painful and hard that there were a few months when I didn’t go. I resented the consultant so much. Unlike what she said, even after 6 months my scars did not disappear. The words, “At first it will turn red, then white, and disappear within 6 months. If long, it can go up to 6 months, and for people who are quick it can disappear within 2 months.......” were completely different from what actually happened. But the scars on my lips have not disappeared for 1 year. On top of that, the areas where I got the scar-tissue injections are indented...... I held it in and received treatment for 1 year. I couldn’t wait any longer, so I talked with the hospital. The hospital says they will cover treatment costs on the 1-year mark..... Yes..... fine..... So I searched many hospitals.... I was devastated........ University hospitals and private plastic surgery clinics told me.......... “If it’s in this state after 1 year... even if you have scar removal surgery, it cannot improve..... You will just have to live like this for the rest of your life....” That was the diagnosis...... I want to die....... Me.... how am I supposed to live like this for the rest of my life? I am a woman, and I’m not even married.............. I want to turn back time to 1 year ago............... How will I endure from now on............. How should I live....... I wanted to go out into the world, but now I don’t even leave the house at all...... It is so agonizing..... Hope has disappeared... for me....