Face upper and lower blepharoplasty surgery went wrong

In 2017, because my eyelids were drooping, I had upper and lower blepharoplasty, and within just a few days after the surgery, vertical lines appeared on my forehead. As the swelling went down, my double eyelids became uneven and asymmetrical, and vertical lines even formed at the outer corners of my eyes. I went to the hospital, and they said it was okay, that it would be fine after 6 months. Gradually my eyebrows also became asymmetrical, and it was so hard that I went to psychiatry. I visited other hospitals too, but the doctors were all on one side. I talked to the surgical hospital again about the asymmetry, but the doctor would not even meet me, just saying it was okay and that it had originally been like that, saying only those things, making me out to be the strange one. Because of asymmetry symptoms on one side of my face, I even developed symptoms of a crooked nose, so I had my 25-year-old silicone removed. Now, almost 3 years later, I felt something bumpy on my face again and scratched it, and something like a thread came out near the forehead side, next to the cheekbone, and even symptoms of skin sagging appeared~~ I called the hospital and said I wanted to meet the doctor and ask, but they said there was no reason and that I could not meet him, and that they had no intention of doing surgery either. As the person involved, I don’t even want to leave my face to them anymore. I just want to know what came out of my face. The consultant said she would ask the doctor and contacted me again, saying it was something that tied the muscle. My skin is thin, but if they tied it enough for it to protrude like that, it seems that even one side of my face became asymmetrical because of it. So I told the consultant that they had never told the patient they would tie the end of the cheekbone or the forehead, and also asked, shouldn’t it not protrude like this? Even then, they raised their voices, saying they had done it properly, that they were now explaining it in detail because I asked, that I was the one who did not understand, and told me to bring a medical certificate. They did the surgery without explaining the method in detail, and now they say they cannot let me meet the doctor and that they have no responsibility. My current condition is that stretch marks have appeared here and there on my forehead, making it sag. I have eye scar tissue, asymmetry, and my double eyelids are sunken because fat was removed. Under my eyes, thread is sticking out and it is rough and red. The thread has snapped and is sagging, and my nose too... I don’t want to live, and I’m enduring each day while taking psychiatric medication. Death feels like the answer, but when I look at my children, my heart hurts. It is too hard to endure. I still wonder what else may be left. How can I keep living? The doctor and the consultant should receive divine punishment, but they even have their own building in Sinsa. Bad people. Every day I’m only anxious about what will happen. What should I do?