If only I had known before breast surgery..

Honestly, even the feel was so different from what I expected. I believed people saying things like, “It’ll feel natural with time”… but even now, I can’t shake the feeling that it feels artificial. Sensation around my breasts still hasn’t returned even now, 10 months later, and my nipples, which used to be sensitive, now just feel pain when touched. There are still uncomfortable moments in daily life. When I press a shampoo pump or hand sanitizer pump, sometimes I can visibly see the implant move, so at first I was really shocked and wondered if it was a side effect. But when I looked it up, they said it’s more common than I thought, which made me feel even more empty. It cost over 10 million won, and I thought that for that amount of money, it would be a place I could truly trust. At the very least, I never once imagined that I might develop lateral displacement. But it happened. Lateral displacement. Part of the reason I got breast augmentation was because of accessory breasts, but the accessory breast tissue didn’t even go away. When I brought this up, they suddenly said something ridiculous about needing a breast lift. They never said a single word about that at first… I really don’t understand. The hospital talks so casually, saying revision can be done simply under sedation and that no recovery is needed… Honestly, I hate the idea of touching the incision area again. But leaving it as is and living with it is also way too stressful. I believed that breast shape ultimately comes down to the doctor’s skill, so I trusted them and had the surgery, but seeing my current condition, I even wonder if I got caught by broker advertising. I really hate how the gap between my breasts looks wide, too. It’s uncomfortable when I sleep on my stomach, and even if I gain just a little weight, it somehow makes my abdomen look more bloated, so these days I’ve even been looking into liposuction. I wonder if this is really the life I expected… Honestly, if I could go back to the beginning, I think I would either look into it much more before doing it… or maybe I would have been fine just living as I was. That’s how much regret I have.