Up to day 4 after surgery -_ - hmm..

I'm a girl who had buried-suture double eyelid surgery on the evening of the 7th;; I went to the hospital through an acquaintance's introduction.. I thought I had ptosis, so I naturally expected full incision, but the doctor told me to do buried sutures;; He said 9 out of 10 people won't have it come undone, and even drew pictures for me, saying the dissolvable thread would hold it in place for a long time;; He explained kindly, which was nice.. I was a little suspicious, but I just made a reservation and had the surgery.. But the surgery hurt more than I expected;; They even gave two anesthesia injections on each side.. And the feeling of the thread being pulled while stitching.. Ugh;; it hurt more than I expected;; After the surgery, the doctor said he would remove a mole for me, but I got so scared that I kept my eyes shut and shouted.. "Please don't just take the mole off!! " I was so scared during the double eyelid surgery that I blurted out not to do it;; (Now that I think about it, I really regret it;; I should have just removed it;;) After the doctor left, the nurse sister gave me a cold compress and spoke kindly in a soft voice.. it was nice As I got off the operating table, I nervously looked in the mirror, and wow- what is this.. The line looked bad and the swelling was huge The line was angular;; So on the way home in Dad's car, I fell into despair.. I don't want to go through this surgery again.. What if it failed.. I kept shaking my head and bumping it against the car window until I fell asleep because I was tired.. Even at home I just slept.. I was so exhausted;; The next day too, I kept looking in the mirror and sighing over and over- ahh- what do I do;; They say the sausage swelling is a matter of time.. But what's the cure for an angular line -_-; I was in despair.......... As the days went by, the angles started to round out.. and the line seemed to be settling in;;; I'm still not sure yet.. But it seems to be settling little by little, very slowly I used to blame the doctor and curse him so much;; Now I might even feel sorry for him.. I haven't seen my boyfriend in almost a week, so I miss him He says we should meet soon too.. that he'll help me hide everything -_-; (He says we can meet where there are no people.. and go somewhere dark when we meet, things like that) But I think it's fine as long as I don't run away;; Ugh- my boyfriend keeps talking like he's upset, so I'm getting caught.. What can I do; the swelling won't let me go..;; Anyway.. I'll report back on the progress and write another review^^*