Please read even though it’s long lol

It’s been four hours since I had incision + fat removal + epicanthoplasty;;; Right now my eyeballs won’t look upward, so I’m tilting my head back and my neck hurts so much lol I had surgery at two o’clock, and I was so nervous about the Mongolian fold anesthesia. People kept saying it hurts so much lol But it’s just bearable~ Just a little stinging lol The fat removal part is the worst... The smell... and as the fat was being pulled out, it felt like not just my eye but my head was being lifted along with it, and it hurt a lot;;; I was keeping my eyeballs looking down because I was scared I’d see blood if my eyes opened, so it was hard;; The doctor said to the nurse, “This is the first time recently you’ve seen this much fat, right?” lol I also felt like blood was coming out of my eyes... and the feeling of being pulled with thread -_-;;; The expected surgery time was 1 hour, but the right side was small, so they undid 3 stitches and sewed it again, and since the anesthesia was almost wearing off, feeling started coming back little by little and I thought I was going to die. After the 1 hour 30 minute surgery, I cried in the taxi on the way home because it hurt so much... I guess that was when the anesthesia was wearing off. Even after I got home, my mom scolded me, and I was in pain and felt so upset that I cried a lot;;; When I looked down, there was bruising. Now it doesn’t hurt at all, but about two hours after surgery is the absolute worst, unbearably painful. Tears come out on their own..;;; Anyway, even if something goes wrong with my eyes, I don’t think I could ever do this surgery again. I really think people who shave their jaw are amazing.. Anyway, everyone who had surgery, I hope your swelling goes down quickly lol I’m scared of tomorrow -_-