Looks like I’ll end up having only revision surgeries for the 4th time..>.<

I had surgery in January last year, then 2 weeks later they operated on only one side again to correct it... For almost a year, I suffered emotionally because of the asymmetry and lived trying not to look at people’s faces when looking at others, then in March I went back to the hospital. One eye had a thick line and looked sleepy.. When I first had surgery, I did have ptosis correction, but compared with the other eye it looked sleepy, and even before that it had not been that bad... They did revision surgery for me.... But this time it became too thin, so it turned into an eye that looks like the double eyelid has completely come undone.. and at the same time it also looks like my eye is slightly not opening fully...ㅡㅡ One eye looks clear, but the other eye looks completely dull and unfocused. It stands out a lot compared with the other eye... So 3 months after the 3rd revision surgery, I went back to the hospital again, and they say they’ll do it again...>.< Well, they say my eyes are difficult eyes, and that the ptosis keeps causing trouble.. Anyway, I’m still so upset and suffering emotionally so much, and on top of that I’m preparing for employment right now.. Every time, I don’t know what this is. It’s not just once or twice.... It’s not like I paid only a small amount of money either...>.< I’m already stressed from preparing for employment, and I also wonder if it’s because of my eyes.. If I have revision surgery again, after surgery I’ll have stitches in, and while waiting for the swelling to go down, during that period I’ll have to postpone job hunting again... I really feel like I’m going crazy..ㅡㅡ I thought about getting a refund.. but when I had the 3rd revision, they told me to trust them just one more time and try, so I did it, and this time they’re saying the exact same thing again.. to try just one more timeㅡㅡ After the 3rd surgery, they said they did their best, and of course they say it’s because of the condition of my eyes..ㅡ.ㅡ This time too they’re saying to try just one more time.. if I do it again this time, seriously, for just one eye it’ll be the 4th time...>.< I really feel like I’m going crazy.