Sedation anesthesia really felt like being drunk, seriously..

Hello lololol I had surgery yesterday and I'm only writing today lololol I wrote on the advice board too.. I secretly had double eyelid surgery yesterday without my dad knowing I'm hiding in my room and doing compresses without my dad knowing. I went to the hospital yesterday, but I arrived early, so they told me to wait a bit. So I was looking around the hospital and there was a photo of Kim Sun-a with the director lolol Sam-soon lolol Well, the person who operated on me wasn't the director though. lololol There was also a photo from when he appeared as an attending doctor on some program hosted by Nam Hee-seok.. As a country girl, I found it so fascinating, so I forgot about the surgery and was looking at the framed photos~ Then the nurse told me to come in, so I went to the consultation room At first I met with the nurse, and she gave me a headband. My forehead is really wide. With my forehead exposed;; in that awful state, I checked things on a questionnaire-like form;; took photos, had eye drops put in, and the area around my eyes disinfected;; then suddenly my eyeballs started feeling stiff and sore;; It was really fascinating lololol Then the doctor came in and we kept consulting~ But he really spent a long time on the consultation, later;; to the point I got tired of it;; Still, it was really nice to see him consult so sincerely lololol Then suddenly the doctor said, "There is a procedure to make the eyes a bit bigger; how about doing that too.. The price is the same, and if you do it your eyes will probably look more open.. But the downside is that the area with the eyelashes flips up a lot, so the skin inside the eyelashes may be visible for about two months~" I was of course in a situation where I had to hide the surgery from my dad, so I said, "No~" But later I kept thinking about it and started wanting it If my eyes could get a bit bigger for the same price, so I said, "Th-then could you just do that eye-enlarging thing you mentioned earlier?" and the doctor smiled and said, "You don't have to be greedy~ Let's decide while doing the surgery first~" After that I lay down on the operating table and ah, it was really scary I was trembling like crazy, and the nurse said, it's okay~ Local anesthesia does hurt, but you'll sleep under sedation for about the 3 minutes it takes to do the local anesthesia.. After sleeping for 3 minutes, the local anesthesia will already be done, she said. Then I got an IV injection. But I was so anxious, what if I can't fall asleep??? That's what I was thinking lololol But sure enough, just like getting drunk and blacking out, suddenly, really in one instant.......my eyes closed. Like someone was forcing my eyes shut lol Then I really felt like I was traveling alone lololol Space travel lololol There was a surgical light right in front of my eyes, so even with my eyes closed, it looked yellow. It felt like yellow colored paper was floating around. lololol And all kinds of thoughts came to mind I thought of the person I have a crush on and cursed that person, then thought, ah, I have to do my school assignment, but if I get double eyelids I won't have time.. then.. suddenly I thought, "Oh right~ I need to get double eyelids... Ah, when should I do it??" I was already having the surgery;; So I couldn't remember that I was having surgery;; I didn't know where I was.. I didn't know whether I was really getting something called double eyelid surgery; anyway, I was really in and out.. completely like being drunk.. lololol Then as the sedation gradually wore off, I heard a scraping sound in my ears. The sound of cutting flesh. Then I smelled burning hair. They said that was the smell of burning fat. lololol Then it seemed like they cut and burned a few times, and later they were stitching with thread. But by then it was a bit prickly~ It wasn't sharply painful, but annoyingly prickly.. Ah, but that feeling was really unpleasant lololol It didn't even hurt, but still it made me feel like, "Ah, I wish they would stop already." They tied one stitch and said, open your eyes~ close them~ From then on, I don't know how many times I opened and closed my eyes, it was so many lololol The really funny thing is that before surgery the nurse said, "When the doctor says open your eyes, open them wide~ That's how the line comes out pretty." But when they actually told me to open them, I couldn't open them wide So when they said close your eyes, I closed them again and resolved, "Next time I open them, I'll open them really wide" but when they told me to open again, I opened them like a shrimp Then near the very end, when it was almost done, I remembered something The fact that if you tense up during surgery, you'll bruise.. I remembered that later, so ridiculously I relaxed when it was almost over. I relaxed at the end, in such a random way. But during surgery, I really could hear the sounds clearly They had the radio on. The one hosted by Lee Hyun-woo.. Whenever a song came on, I tried moving my fingers.. When they read stories, I sympathized with them, and answered the guests in my head.. lol Then I also listened to what the doctors were saying.. lol I'm a nursing student.. So when I heard them, I was happy inside like, "Ah, I heard that during hospital practice~" lololol The surgery ended like that in 1 hour. But as soon as the surgery was over, they put flesh-colored tape from right above the line all the way up to my eyebrows;; Because of that;; I couldn't even see how the line turned out;; and my eyebrows were buried under the flesh-colored tape;; as if they didn't exist;; After the surgery was all done, I did compresses in the recovery room and got an ice pack from the hospital, then came home. My house is really far, so it takes almost 2 hours to get to the hospital. I was embarrassed riding the subway home. I felt like everyone was looking at me for no reason.. even though I wore a hat and glasses.. Ah.. Even now I can't see well because of the tape. What I can see is the huge bruising through the tape... and also the sausage swelling I had always only seen in photos in this community....... lol Seriously;;; the line didn't even come out;; my left eye;;; because the swelling is so puffy..;; But isn't the sausage supposed to appear below the line?;;; Why did even my line get buried?. Ah, honestly I'm anxious. My left eye has a lot of bruising too.;;; I'm going to get the tape removed today, so I should be able to see my eyes more clearly.. I don't have a very good feeling about it. Will mine really turn out okay??? Besides;; did the doctor;; also do that procedure to make the eyes bigger;; I don't know that either. I wish he had done it if possible, but seeing that my eyelashes aren't flipped up;; I guess he didn't Ah, I'm upset If there is anyone who hasn't had surgery yet, hang in there! The surgery really passes in an instant. Make sure it goes well~~~~ lol Fighting^^* Everyone, become prettier~