Yesterday.. surgery started a little after 2, and when I came to my senses.. it was a little past 8... I almost fainted when I looked in the mirror ㅠㅠ My nose was swollen wide, about twice as big, totally like a wide bulbous nose.. My mouth.. my mouth is already a bit big, but it swelled more than twice its size. My mom kept saying next to me that I looked like Aku-woman, Aku-woman ㅠㅠ They say the surgery was successful, though.. Yesterday I was conscious all day and woke up every 30 minutes.. It was so hard to sleep.. They said I had to sleep sitting up ㅠㅠ ... Still, the nurse who came running right away when I rang the bell ㅜㅜ I’m really grateful.. My mom and dad run a business.. In the evening there isn’t even a lady working there, so they have to go to the store to close up.. Alone, I could barely talk, felt like throwing up.. I kept thinking I really shouldn’t have had the surgery, I should have just lived with the way I looked.. I was full of regret.. I kept applying ice packs... The nurse came and drained blood for me.. .. Wow.. getting prettier is really hard.. ㅠㅠ And today.. at 12 noon, they removed the bandage and tubes, and I came home.. I thought they were completely removing the bandage, but I wore a thinner bandage and came home by call taxi ㅠㅠ I’m so.. hungry.. This morning, the lady at the hospital gave me a little pumpkin porridge, but at that time I really couldn’t swallow it.. But -0- now.. why am I so hungry.. Mom says to make porridge and eat it.. ㅠㅠㅠㅠ They took fat from my abdomen.. It isn’t lumpy, but the bruising is seriously intense. What should I do ㅜㅜ When I lie down, my head feels tight, so I can’t even lie down.. If I stay up, I get dizzy.. Even though I keep telling my mom, she keeps saying -0- it’s all me exaggerating ㅠ ㅠㅠ Honestly, I do exaggerate a little... But it’s hard ㅠㅠ I really hope I get prettier as much as this is hard... I never want to have anesthesia again ㅠㅠㅠ I feel nauseous.... Sigh. The mouthwash the hospital gave me.. is so strange ㅠㅠ it makes me queasy.. I really hope the swelling goes down a lot ㅠㅠ .. My face was big even before surgery, but it feels like it swelled to about twice that size....... ㅜㅜ If my nose stays wide like a pig nose.. and my mouth stays like Aku’s mouth.. If it keeps like this.. I think I’ll really want to die.. When I had double eyelid surgery, the swelling was really only about 1.2 times? It was less than when I ate a lot and slept, but there was swelling.. Trusting that.. I thought I wouldn’t swell if I had surgery, but I was wrong ㅜㅜ I’m anxious and frustrated in so many ways ㅠㅠ Please, I hope the swelling goes down.. Yesterday my boyfriend said he was coming to visit me in the hospital.. But I looked in the mirror, freaked out, and told him not to come.... ㅠㅠㅠㅠ I’ll upload progress photos.. after removing the bandage... I’m going to have it removed the day after tomorrow... ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ
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