Please listen to my story

Hello.. I always used to come into this community just to look around and leave, but now that I’m actually having such a hard time, I have nowhere to vent, so I’m leaving a post.. Even though it’s long, please read it and please reply. Even now my eyes are filling with tears and I feel like I’m going crazy.. 10 days ago.. I had my eyes and nose done at a plastic surgery clinic.. Before surgery, I went to about 5 places for consultations, and they all said my nasal bridge was high, so I didn’t need to raise it. One plastic surgery clinic even asked why I would do my nose and told me not to do it. But the last place I went for a consultation.. They said a few celebrities had gotten it done there too, and that it was a good place.. For my eyes, they said we should do the excision method, and after looking at my nose, they said it was low, and suggested putting in Gore-Tex only as thin as a sheet of paper.. They said they were skilled, so I trusted them and did it.. Everyone.. But what exactly is the excision method.. When I asked, they only said it was more complicated than incision and didn’t explain in detail.. The swelling seemed to go down only on the day the stitches were removed, and now it’s still like a sausage. My nose is a problem too.. My nose is long, so it makes me look older, and it needed to become shorter, but the nasal tip drooped, making it look even longer, the side profile looks strange, and the area between my eyebrows is sticking out abruptly. I can’t even open my mouth wide because my nose pulls.. And my nose is crooked. My original nose was a bit crooked, but it wasn’t this bad. It was so slight that you wouldn’t know unless you looked very closely.. But after surgery, from the middle part of the nasal bridge, my nose is crooked in a C-shape. Everyone says it’s crooked, but only the clinic says it isn’t.. I’m 200% unhappy with it, and I regret why I did it. My family doesn’t even know I had nose surgery.. It’s Lunar New Year, but I can’t even go home, and I’m so sad alone that I feel like I’ve developed depression What should I do.. This clinic would never refund me even if they died.. I’m so scared of revision surgery, so what should I do..