I originally planned to do my forehead, eyes, and nose all together^^; But because of my mom's intense opposition.. sob sob If I did my eyes this time, it would have been my third time, you know? My mom yelled at me, saying, do you really want to become an artificial human?.. So~ we agreed that I would only get my nose touched up again^^ While I was looking for hospitals.. I went to consultations, and everyone seemed not very confident about my nose. They said that even if I had surgery, it wouldn't be much different from now, and that my image was fine as it was, so I was pretty.. They kept making one excuse after another, trying to break my determination to get surgery~ So I ended up worrying even more, and my friends also said I was already pretty now, and that if I touched it up again, I would regret it.. just live with the face I was born with.. Because of that, my mom opposed it even more, saying, See, this is a sign from heaven telling you not to touch your face.. and so on~ㅡㅡ; Still, while I stubbornly kept looking into hospitals, there was a hospital that often came up in a cafe I know, so I thought about getting a consultation there.. but~ I had an ominous feeling that I might get baited by a broker, but I went to that hospital, thinking I'd give it a try even if I got fooled once~ But unexpectedly, there were many patients who had had surgery and many customers waiting for consultations too. Then I had a consultation with the manager, and after looking at my side profile.. she said my nose was a bit blunt.. She recommended that I rebuild my nasal bridge, correct my bulbous nose, and have surgery to lower the nasal tip (upturned nose) (for reference, it was a revision surgery^^;) She said that if possible, they could shave down the spread-out bones with osteotomy.. But she said the doctor would decide that after opening the nose during surgery? Looking at the photos, somehow.. I got the feeling that if I did it here, it would change dramatically.. But my mom still seemed really suspicious, saying that until she heard a definite answer about the surgery from the director, surgery was absolutely not allowed..ㅠㅠ She said, what would the manager know..ㅠㅠ In the end, because of my mom's fussiness, I consulted with the director again, and only after getting a definite answer that he would make my nose pretty, we scheduled the surgery date and paid the deposit~ I had surgery right away that week^^ hehe~ Maybe I was a bit tired that day, but after anesthesia, I slept much~ better than before.. had fewer nightmares too~ But even though they covered my eyes, mouth, and ears~ I could still hear the sound of some machine grinding bone..ㅠㅠ The feeling of suturing and things like that didn't hurt, but the fear was definitely still there~ ㄷㄷ I had clearly thought I never wanted to go through this kind of humiliation again, but seeing myself on the operating table again.. I thought, I'm tough.. I missed my mom, and I missed the dogs at home too.. heueong~ I almost cried.. all kinds of emotions crossed my mind~ But after the sleep anesthesia was almost completely worn off, lying there was boring~ After the surgery ended, my body felt dizzy too, and all I could think was.. ah, I want to hurry home and sleep.. Even while the nurse was explaining the precautions, I just kept spacing out~ Then I barely managed to get home and was leaning on a cushion, and the moment I saw my nose.. I felt dizzy and like something had gone wrong~ The nasal tip was so lifted, as if it had been firmly fixed with a clothespin, and my originally round nostrils had become sharp triangles..ㅡㅡ At that moment, I was filled with total regret.. The flesh ached deeply and hurt so much, like it was tearing.. I couldn't sleep properly either.. Anyway, because of all kinds of pain.. I felt so depressed and irritated~ On top of that, because it hurt, later I couldn't even be bothered to look in the mirror. I kept going to the hospital for injections and dressings, and it was hard, but when I saw myself after the tape was removed.. it was definitely different on the first day, second day, and so on. As time went on, the nasal tip became more visible.. and the swelling went down.. amazing~ The nose I wanted was like Heather Marks.. with the cartilage at the nasal tip protruding a bit and looking rounded.. that kind of style. I really like the nasal tip shape and the side profile^^ The swelling will go down more from now on though^^ But.. I guess because I do have a somewhat bulbous nose and thick skin, the nasal ala still look thick.. a bit.. it's somewhat better than before, but.. something about it.. hmm~ Still, I'm satisfied with the sharper side profile and the nasal tip becoming the style I wanted^^ The nasal ala feel about 2% lacking? sigh~ I want to reduce the volume of the nasal ala a bit? Or make them thinner.. Is there no way to do that? If not for the thick nasal ala, I really.. like it, though? Anyway, the day after tomorrow, I'll have the sutures inside my nose and all the tape removed~ I want to wash my face soon~ My sebum was so bad that even the doctor was shocked.. ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ
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