2006 10 15 It’s finally surgery day I’m really shaky and nervous My girl friends said they’d come with me, so that gives me strength When I changed clothes and went into the operating room, a million thoughts crossed my mind and I thought I wanted to go home dozens of times I guess the anesthesia was going in, because it felt strange I kept flying through the sky, then falling to the ground, then flying and falling again, and after passing through a long tunnel I chased the sunlight ㅡㅡ Damn~ it wasn’t sunlight, it was the operating room light When I woke up, they were harvesting cartilage from my ear, and that scraping sound felt really strange, damn~ I was so nervous that I was trembling a lot, and when the doctor said, "What’s wrong with this patient?" I was so embarrassed. When the long surgery was over and I came out and saw my face ㅋㅋㅋㅋ It was funny, but why did I look so pretty? 10 19 I had the cast removed 4 days after surgery and came out Ah, but I’m really disappointed What is this~ my eyes look close together and my nose is as big as a fist, so sitting in the hospital lobby was so embarrassing ... My girl friends kept laughing at me!! Those mean things~ But then I saw someone who had cheekbone, nose, and eye surgery ㅋㅋㅋ and it comforted me~ seriously, that person looked like a real monster 10 28 Ah~ that dreadful pumpkin juice, I don’t even remember how much I’ve drunk... I want to stop drinking it, but there’s still one more box left, damn~ When people around me heard I was getting surgery, they all bought me pumpkin juice Today is the day I’m supposed to go to the hospital and take photos, but in this state I don’t want them taking pictures~ every time I look in the mirror, I get irritated with my face dozens of times. Did I have surgery just to look like this? I want to smash the mirror~ Do I have to live like this for the rest of my life? In the end, I skipped the hospital and came out to meet my friend They know it hasn’t been long since my surgery, but they tell me to go drink ㅡㅡ I told myself I wouldn’t drink.. but the moment I saw my face in the bathroom, the alcohol went down gulp after gulp, really~ so~ easily ㅋㅋㅋ I drank hard. I’ll think about tomorrow tomorrow 11.?? Ah damn, my nose still looks like this They say it looked better before surgery~ I want to bury my face in the ground I hate the world. Aaaah I hate my face~ 4.? I’m suffering from depression. I don’t even go outside and I don’t want to go out to have fun My daily routine is either being holed up in a PC room or watching TV at home over and over I hate going outside~ I hate looking in the mirror too My life is screwed. After surgery, my life started going wrong It’s already been 3 months of shut-in life ㅡㅡ May ?? My girl friends keep calling me out I can’t just not go, I’m going crazy I made up my mind and after a long time got skin care, got exfoliation care too, and did my makeup nicely~ huh, but people say I’m pretty~ It’s strange. Until just recently I had no confidence in my face Is my face finally starting to shine? ㅋㅋ After surgery, I got depressed and lost about 5 kg, so is it because I lost weight? Anyway, I feel like I could fly Now I’m gaining confidence in my face~ Even when I take photos, I don’t look like my old self~ Now instead of cute, people say things like sexy and pretty, so I really like it~ spring is so beautiful ㅋㅋㅋ 6.?? I want to get surgery again. Make the nasal tip a little more defined, reduce the nostril wings a bit ...... get rid of my cheekbones too, and get Botox .... ugh~ I must be crazy~ If only I had money, I’d want to do it all ... maybe it’s a relief I don’t have money ㅋㅋ Human greed really seems to have no limit~ Stop here~ I’m not extremely pretty, but now I should live satisfied with my face I wrote my story after surgery in diary form It’s not much, but thank you for reading~ Now things have settled to some extent and I’m spending really enjoyable days. I hope everyone’s surgery succeeds and you all become pretty^^
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