Today marks 4 weeks after hooked-nose surgery, before and after, and I’m left with only regret

The upper photo is before surgery, and the lower photo is after surgery. I don’t have any pre-op photos that show only the nose... I did have a hooked nose, but as you can see in the pre-op photo, it wasn’t that severe. Compared with a typical hooked nose, the nasal tip wasn’t drooping, the protruding bone area wasn’t severe, and I did have some glabella height.. So until I said it myself, people didn’t even know my nose was hooked... But you know yourself best~ It wasn’t severe, but the fact that it was a hooked nose stressed me out so much that I finally had surgery this time. The surgical details were hump osteotomy, 1 mm Gore-Sili on the nasal bridge + tying with autologous cartilage on the nasal bridge, they said. But.. because of the surgical result after surgery, I can’t sleep well these days. Now 4 weeks have passed, but the glabella is high and the starting point of the glabella is too high too.. Also, the previously thin glabella/nasal bridge became thicker, so it somehow looks more blunt. And I clearly had hooked-nose surgery.. but it’s so upsetting that the nasal bridge isn’t smooth either.. Even now, 4 weeks later, the bruising hasn’t gone away, and instead of the nose getting higher, it feels like it has become lower than before...... When I ask the clinic, all they say is to wait 3 months I want to remove the silicone, but if I do, I don’t know whether the osteotomy area will be proper.. Before surgery, when people saw my nose and asked if I had surgery because it looked high, I could confidently say I didn’t and show them a piggy nose.. Now I can’t do that anymore... I can’t even make a piggy nose now;;; It’s a surgery I had while wasting money and time... It only hurts my heart...... And the bruise between the glabella/nasal bridge and the eyes has settled like dark circles and won’t go away... The saying that nose surgery is really like crossing a river you can’t come back from.... I relate to it after surgery like this.