Day 65 after removing the ear cartilage from the nasal tip and the nasal tip suturing.. Nose warm compresses and nose massage have become part of my life.. haha Coming into this community also seems to have become part of my daily routine.. Today too, I’m anxiously scrolling around.. scrolling even when I have nothing to do.. For about two days after removal, I felt relieved and happy, then for the next week I wasn’t really living, and for the next month I stayed glued in front of the mirror, telling myself it would get better, then crying and screaming.. taking out my temper for no reason on my boyfriend who is always beside me.. saying I’d rather die, asking whether I could live.. praying.. It was really chaotic. In the early days after removal, I think it was even harder because of the guilt. I felt like I was standing at the edge of a cliff, thinking I had ruined a perfectly fine nose because of my own greed and was being punished for it. Every time I looked in the mirror, seeing the wound inside my nose and imagining the inside must be full of scars too made my own face look disgusting to me.. These days it has gotten a little better. Actually, before surgery I was satisfied with my appearance and lived well.. Wherever I went, I always heard that I was pretty.. that I looked very feminine.. cute.. As those comments piled up, I think I gradually became conceited without realizing it.. I blamed myself a lot after the nose surgery.. Anyway, while living fine, I started thinking that if only my nasal tip were slightly lifted and made slimmer, I would become really pretty like a celebrity. Very occasionally, older people had said things like my nose was well-shaped in a masculine way, and I used that to rationalize it, thinking I had a complex about my nose.. that I had to fix it.. and ended up having surgery at super speed. I barely looked into it. I only went to exactly two surgery clinics and decided at the second one, so that says it all. It would be closed rhinoplasty, and in 2 weeks it would look very natural. Hearing that, it was like I was possessed by something; after persuading my parents, I emphasized over and over that I wanted it natural, then a few days later I was on the operating table. The result was.. my nose got bigger. The suitably slim and pretty nasal tip disappeared completely, the tip got bigger, and as the swelling went down, I already felt like the ear cartilage was drooping. Like a beak.. No matter how much I looked at myself in the mirror, I didn’t feel I had become prettier, and my mom said, your previous nose was pretty.. and that made me so upset. Belatedly, I went through every plastic surgery site I could find and looked up similar situations.. but I didn’t see much room for improvement in my case. Because people said removal should be within 2 weeks, I cried for several days, barely ate, made up my mind, and went to the surgical clinic asking them to remove it. The consultant said the surgery went well.. that their clinic almost never has cases like this.. that I would regret taking it out.. They did say verbally that if I wanted it removed they would remove it.. but they tried as much as possible to stop me.. telling me to endure a little longer.. The doctor also said the surgery went well.. tried to persuade me.. then when I said the shape of my nose was strange.. that it felt burdensome.. that I wanted it removed.. he suddenly yelled, fine, if you take it out and anything happens, I don’t know. Still, I stubbornly said I would remove it, and in the end I had it removed that same day. It was hard even to see the doctor, and I barely managed to see him.. ㅡㅡ Anyway, I felt the doctor was somewhat harsh, but I had to entrust my nose to him, so I had no choice but to say I was sorry and ask him to remove it well.. I did not receive a refund and had it removed. After it was removed in about 20 minutes and I opened my eyes, tears streamed down. Right after removal, I felt so light and relieved. Of course, after that was the beginning of hell.. These days my nose is much softer than before, but it still isn’t as good as before surgery. The central part still feels hard? And when I go out in the cold, my nose feels tight and like it is curling inward, so I don’t go out much.. I get so conscious of it that I can’t do anything. The morning swelling seems to have improved a bit.. and it still feels stiff. As for scar tissue.. whether the scar tissue inside the nostril or inside the nose.. the right side is worse. I think it’s because most of the surgery was done through the right side and the removal was also through the right side.. And the first photo taken from under the nose was just taken, and because of the nasal scar tissue, the nasal tip looks slightly asymmetric.. and the nostril sizes are different. The right side is slightly collapsed and smaller. A finger goes into the right side a bit stiffly. And even from the front or side, the right nostril feels slightly lifted up.. The nostril shape still hasn’t returned. The area marked in green in the photo hurts when pressed, but it still doesn’t feel like my own flesh and the sensation is dull.. This area bothers me.. Please give me advice on how your sensation was after surgery.. Since about 3 weeks ago, it sometimes tingles or itches, but it still hasn’t come back.. Also, scar tissue has attached above and beside the nasal ala, so my nose still feels round only at the end and blunt. I think because of this, my impression also looks a bit dull.. Especially in photos, it seems to show well.. Oh, and.. the second one below is a photo of my nose before surgery.. ㅠㅜ I’m still.. recovering.. These days I cry less, but I don’t think there has been even a moment when I didn’t think about my nose.. I hope that with steady recovery.. my nose.. can become pretty and healthy like before... When I’ve recovered somewhat.. and feel like dressing up like before.. I’ll upload photos of my nose~ I was taking photos and tried uploading one.. Some people were curious about my condition too.. The post seems too long.. To everyone who has had removal, let’s stay strong.
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