Day 12 and I’m really depressed just venting~!!

I had my splint removed yesterday..... The moment I saw the reality of my nose, I couldn’t feel any difference from my previous nose~ Since my nasal bridge was so low to begin with, I think the bridge may have been raised a bit, but as for the nasal tip, where on earth did they lift it? Not at all It hurt so freaking much, I spent all day stuck at home, wasted time, wasted money, and on the way back I felt so upset that I cried When I look at other people’s photos, they look different and prettier, but when my older brother saw me for the first time after I came home, all he said was, “What is that?”;;;;;; Damn it;;;;; He said nothing changed at all................ The doctor says that once the swelling on the sides goes down, it will look more defined, but to me it looks like the swelling has pretty much all gone down already, and it seems like the doctor is just saying nice things............;;;; I was totally craving soju, but I just drank cola..... I definitely had my nose done, but my older brother asked me if I had a slight epicanthoplasty done......... Ah~ I’m seriously annoyed ㅡ.ㅡ People who had rhinoplasty!!! After a month, does it become a bit more defined like the doctor says? I had a slight hump shaved down, and had ear cartilage, septal cartilage, silicone, and cartilage tying done~ As of today it’s day 12. When I take photos, there are still faint yellow bruises around my nose and eyes, but in person it’s hard to notice Does it really change? Please..... I hope this nose isn’t the final result I don’t want revision surgery Should I get filler? Ughhhhh;;; Thank you for reading my long vent