Being a mother of two is great, but don’t forget to live as a woman too…

Hello~ I’m a woman living as a mother of two^^ I turned 35 this year, and at some point my husband stopped seeing me as a woman and only saw me as the mother of his two children, someone who gave birth to them? raises them?... My pride kept getting hurt little by little until it reached its limit. I already had so many complexes, and since he didn’t see me as a woman either, the stress over those complexes became even worse Narrow shoulders... small breasts... plus pectus carinatum, I was in total despair... As you can see from the photos, the area below the center of my collarbones protrudes, so my already small breasts looked even smaller, and I was extremely reluctant to go to saunas with friends and even with my mom... (I’m sure some people can relate.) To get away from these concerns, I decided to have breast augmentation surgery, and it’s now almost been 2 weeks since the operation. I thought a day like this would never come for me and even considered just focusing hard on raising my children, but I’m still not even 40 yet and didn’t want to live like that already, so I got the surgery, and I’m so satisfied~ These days my husband keeps sticking by my side every day and won’t leave me alone, but I push him away saying, “Stop bothering me! It’s hot!” and I’m feeling those dating-days emotions of keeping him on edge again, so I’m living happily as a chic woman * Surgery process * First, the anesthesiology director talked to me while I was nervous, told me fun stories, and said that if I closed my eyes for a moment, I would wake up beautifully transformed, and that I should have pretty dreams while I slept briefly. They kept talking so skillfully so I wouldn’t feel nervous, and maybe because the anesthesiology director was so experienced, just as I thought, this is fun and trustworthy~ I went ZZ As my eyes slowly opened, the first thing I saw was a blurry fluorescent light, like in the movies. I had asked my friend to come with me because I was nervous, but she had work and said she would arrive before the surgery ended. When I woke up from anesthesia, she was there. When I was lying still, it didn’t hurt at all, so I thought to myself, this is nothing, but when I wanted to go to the bathroom and went with my friend’s help, it throbbed. It wasn’t severely painful, but I got a little scared. After resting for a while and leaving the hospital, I thought, wow, I really would have struggled if my friend hadn’t come... (If you have a close friend, I think it’s good to go together^^) I rode home in my friend’s car and felt this indescribable sense of pride.... Something full? That feeling... It was so nice and exciting that I smiled without realizing it ^-^ At home, I did the massage exactly as the director and manager had told me, and it hurt less than I expected. While massaging, I felt it~ I really made the right choice getting breast augmentation~ Before surgery, when I was looking up information online, I had read that if there is less bleeding during surgery and the implants are inserted deep inside the breast, breast massage doesn’t hurt much, and when it didn’t hurt, that’s what I thought~ Because I have pectus carinatum, they said I would need to massage diligently to make the breast shape pretty, but I can do the massages without feeling burdened, and going to the hospital for follow-ups or receiving massages doesn’t feel burdensome either~ Why!! Because the director is a woman, I don’t feel uncomfortable at all~ If I imagined a male director massaging my breasts... especially since I’m a married woman and my husband is sensitive about things like that, he was against it at first, but when I said I was doing it with a female director, he said OK!~ I was lucky to meet a good director, and I think it went well. All the emotional stress I had been carrying disappeared at once, so now I’m living with so much confidence~ Like the saying that stagnant water rots, don’t just keep thinking about it. Try putting it into action^^