Day 11 after silicone removal

It’s day 11 since I removed the silicone that had been covering the bridge of my nose for 14 years. It’s still too early to make any judgments, but the bridge is in better condition than I had worried, so I just feel grateful. My nose used to be low but slim and straight, and I only feel so sorry to my nose for putting silicone on it and making it suffer for so many years. Currently, as the bridge is starting to show its contours, it is gradually getting better from the nose that made me mentally collapse on the first day the tape was removed. From the side, the area between my brows has disappeared, but maybe because the bridge is slim, the front view is bearable. Yesterday, for the first time after silicone removal, I met someone from my neighborhood, and they didn’t recognize it. I guess that’s how little interest people have in my remaining nose. The problem is the nasal tip. Why on earth is my doctor so greedy with my nasal tip? This nasal tip doesn’t suit the bridgeㅜㅜ When I wake up in the morning, my nose is slightly swollen and the tip is spread out, so it looks lower and more bearable. But after about 20 minutes, it slowly starts getting higher again from the middle of the nose to the tip. Why is this happening? They say the nose changes constantly in the early stage, but which nose is actually my nose? I wish the nose I have when I wake up in the morning were my real nose. At least the nasal tip is a bit lower then. After nose surgery, I’ve been experiencing panic, anxiety, and a feeling of tightness, so I should at least go outside, but maybe because the weather is cold, when I’m exposed to the cold wind, it feels like my nose is shrinking. It’s even harder. Clearly, the more you touch the nose, the more it suffers. The columella that was opened twice is in worse condition than the first time. The incision area feels a bit shrunken. I desperately want to remove the support right away, but following the advice of many seniors, I’m going to watch it for now. If only the nasal tip would come down smoothly, I might try to endure and live with it, but with this nose, I think it would be really hard. Tomorrow, I might again go crazy saying removal, removal. If I had known about this place before my revision surgery 3 months ago, timid as I am, I never would have had revision surgery.... Those who are seeing posts like this even now are lucky.