I got nasal contracture and I want to die, really... Does it come down?

On December 30 last year I had surgery with silicone and septal cartilage. At that time, blood also collected in the glabella area, but they said there was no inflammatory reaction, and the swelling lasted a long time too.. And then around September 19.. Because of delayed inflammation? something like that, I had a phenomenon where the nasal tip lifted, so I removed only the silicone. The silicone was also bent, and my nostrils were becoming more and more uneven. I had thought only things like the nasal dorsum turning red and a strange smell from nasal discharge? were inflammation.. There were about 2 times when, after waking up, my glabella area was extremely swollen, but the hospital said it was part of the healing process.. Then after another day or two it got better, so I thought that was what it was. Anyway, like that, because silicone didn’t suit my body, inflammation seems to have healed and recurred without me knowing, and my nasal tip must have lifted. The doctor suggested adding ear cartilage, but I’m so scared of surgery itself, really..... For now I chose to remove only the silicone. Saying I’d do more if it got worse. And I removed the silicone, and today is day 11. My nose is definitely lifted... When I describe it as contracture, my heart hurts so much and it stings. I say my nose is lifted.. It is contracture, right...? Since it was a lifted nose even before silicone removal, will it not come down more?.. I really don’t want to do length extension again with ear cartilage or use rib cartilage anymore, and I don’t want to do... any more plastic surgery. I’m scared, and the result isn’t guaranteed either. It was a surgery I did because of the nasal bridge, but in the end it feels like the bridge only got lower and the nasal tip is... lifted I don’t think I can go back to school, and I’m in my early 20s. Should I go live in another country now, should I die, I don’t even have the courage to die, and I just cry every day and feel like I’m going crazy. The hospital said it can lift more until one month and then come down. But I see posts saying that if it lifted because of inflammation, it doesn’t come down, so I’m going crazy. Before I removed the silicone, I went for consultations at several hospitals, and half said there was no inflammation and that the nasal tip had lifted, while half said there was inflammation. Before removing it, there was something slightly like fluid collected in the glabella area. There was also a very tiny bit of something like dried exudate in the left nostril that I once peeled off, but I’m not sure about this. But even though I told them this, several hospitals looked inside my nose closely and said it didn’t seem like inflammation.. Ah, I keep repeating only the words “inflammation doesn’t come down, doesn’t come down”... in my head. I left the nasal tip and removed only the silicone. Ah, really, I can’t tell anyone anywhere, and I can’t even live my daily life. I’m always only at home. I’ve gone silent.. even with friends.. I had never once thought about living abroad, and my major isn’t in that direction either.. But if things stay like this, I don’t think I can live in Korea. I haven’t even had the stitches removed yet, am I making a fuss too early? I really hope that’s the case..