I feel like I’m going crazy because of my asymmetrical eyes (lots of photos, sorry)

<When I glare, they look like this><When flipped left-right, they look like this…><This is a rear-camera photo taken while traveling, damn> In January last year, I had an upper epicanthoplasty and double eyelid buried-suture surgery at a place that’s really famous for making results look natural. When I look at selfies or in the mirror, it just looks natural and not bad. People around me also say it looks very natural and that the asymmetry isn’t very noticeable unless I mention it, and then they’re like, “Oh, maybe?” But when I see photos taken with the rear camera or flip my selfies left-right, the asymmetry is on another level… My left eye looks sleepy… Actually, at another clinic they said my left eye-opening strength was weak and recommended ptosis correction, but I was scared and didn’t want to do it. Another conservative clinic didn’t really recommend it, so I didn’t do it. But I do think the line itself was set a bit high. I also have a secondary crease I think there’s very slight mucosal eversion too. My right side didn’t get enough upper epicanthoplasty, so the line gets slightly hidden and looks almost like an inline crease. I know my eyes were originally uneven and my eye-opening strength is also asymmetric, so perfect symmetry is hard… but people’s feelings are complicated. I wish I weren’t scared of photos taken by others. Rear-camera photos make me look so monstrous that sometimes I miss my eyes before double eyelid surgery. But then again, I’m worried that if I get revision surgery for no reason, it might turn out even worse, so maybe I should just leave it alone… Also, I’m not thinking of getting ptosis correction. If that’s essential, I don’t think I’ll get revision surgery because I’m too scared… Please give me your opinions. The clinic where I had my first surgery has probably passed the aftercare period, so I don’t think they’ll provide AS.