I only had the Silitex removed! (Osteotomy)

This was my 6th surgery just on my nose....... I lay on the operating table for the last time. Ah. It was truly a terrible journey hahaha I never want to experience it again... I never want to see the lights over an operating table again! First, I decided to leave the ear cartilage in my nasal tip and the Medpor in my columella, and remove only the 4.5 mm Silitex from the nasal bridge. They played a song I like, and while I was listening I went into the world of sleep......... hahaha But I felt my nose being opened.... sob sob After some time passed, I regained consciousness. The surgery was in progress, and since I had heard I might wake up midway, I was prepared, but still I couldn’t help the stiffness. I’m extremely scared, so my heart rate fluctuates a lot... So the assistants hurriedly went to play the song I like again hahahahahahaha Sorry... During the surgery like that..... I really started cursing this material called Silitex It is ridiculously hard to remove... I can’t forget the feeling of it being separated from the skin tissue. And when they removed the long-awaited glabella area.... I was anesthetized again. Maybe it’s because I’m dramatic, but I even hated that sensation.. I whined for them to put me back to sleep, but it didn’t work.........^^; So I got three anesthesia shots and stayed quiet...... They scraped it off with that grinding sensation... stitched me up........ Ha.... Really... I’m going to curse Silitex. No, I’ll curse the previous clinic. It felt like time absolutely would not pass. When on earth will this hellish time end...... Whew.. I wished I could at least lose consciousness. When that hellish time ended and they were stitching me up, I was so moved that I told the director, “Thank you, thank you, director, really thank you, you worked hard, I love you,” and......; I must have been crazy... And the osteotomy I was worried about.. They said the area wasn’t crushed or uneven or anything like that. Should I call that a huge relief....... And they said, “You actually do have a nasal bridge~,” so I’m trying to have more hope. I went to the recovery room and looked in the mirror. I thought I’d look like a monster, but there was almost no swelling and no bruising at all. Just the eyes slightly pulled together? I guess this is the start now haha. I’m scared, but if I can’t avoid this fear, I’m going to try to enjoy it...... The fun of swelling going down day by day.. Since I know that.... I’ll imagine my youthful image coming back again, think only in a good direction, imagine and imagine, and live positively day by day! For reference, I was so...... fine that; As soon as I left, I went to DunX Donuts, bought 10,000 won worth of donuts, and ate them all as soon as I got home Even while whining that the open incision hurt, I was eating so well that my parents scolded me, saying, “Looks like she’s well enough to live”........ Bam!!!! I’m never having surgery again^^ I’m just going to live as I was born now I really, really think you shouldn’t touch the nose unless it’s truly deformed! Everyone having removal, have hope and fighting! Don’t even think about things like contracture, and tell yourself, “I’m lucky, so that won’t happen to me!!!” Strengthen your mind like that~! Since I didn’t remove the columella or nasal tip, I don’t think contracture will happen to me...! And they say unless you remove it because of inflammation, the chance of contracture is almost nonexistent^^