I think my nose surgery was a total disaster

It was a revision surgery, and my original nose wasn’t bad either, but I had it done 10 years ago and started feeling like it was gradually becoming crooked, so after only agonizing over it for years, I mainly looked for places that said they would make it natural. At some of those clinics, I was told to just live without doing it. They even said it still looked fine, and since my facial bones themselves are asymmetrical, it would probably become crooked again; if it really bothered me, I should go back to the clinic that did the surgery and just replace the implant; and not to go to a doctor who says they can straighten it and end up getting my nose messed up for no reason. I should have listened to those conscientious doctors, but I was crazy.. Anyway, even before surgery, I emphasized only one thing: it absolutely had to look natural. I asked them to make it so no one else would notice, only I would be able to tell. Especially, I told them not to raise the glabella height. I told them not to make it look upturned with my nostrils showing. I said I preferred the columella to be slightly lowered. It’s day 15 now, but first of all, my glabella has become insanely high, the starting point is higher, and the silicone is thick. My nostrils show a lot from the front. The alar rims are lower than the columella. Can’t you roughly tell whether it’s lifted because of swelling or whether that’s the design? But this feels like the structure itself was designed that way. At first, only the nostrils showing bothered me, but now it’s even worse. As the swelling goes down, I can see that the glabella has become high. As time passes and the swelling goes down, my impression is getting stronger and stronger, and even if the nostrils come down from here, I don’t think they’ll be covered. Everyone around me looks shocked when they see my face. Outwardly they say it’ll probably be okay once the swelling goes down, but you can tell from their expressions, you know No, how can they make it the complete opposite of what I requested??? After searching more belatedly, the broker/blacklist reviews are bad too. I think I only tried to look at the good reviews. Fuck, I seriously want to turn back time so badly I’m going crazy. I really liked my first surgery, I should have just found that doctor again. I’m definitely going to get revision surgery, but do I have to wait 1 year?? Thinking about living like this for 1 year is really depressing