After fat grafting to my upper eyelids, it became lumpy and the foreign-body sensation got severe
It has been a little less than two months since I had it removed through a surgical incision
They placed the scar where it is really visible, so I’m so anxious and struggling over whether it will become less noticeable later
And now the unevenness between my eyes has gotten worse too, so it’s painful
Even when I try to reassure myself that it’s swelling, the clinic doesn’t even say for sure that it will improve, and they don’t do anything, they just tell me to wait
The pain during that waiting period will be entirely mine to bear, right
Even before the fat grafting, I had multiple eyelid creases, but the black pupil exposure was the same, and they weren’t uneven enough to be noticeable
After the fat grafting, the multiple creases improved, and of course they weren’t uneven then either
When I compare the photos, they’ve clearly become uneven..
People say everyone’s eyes are asymmetrical to some extent, but mine were originally normal enough that it wasn’t noticeable, and now they’ve become this uneven
Together with the scar, it feels like my eyes have been ruined
Every day I hold back the urge to die, then write a suicide note.. My life has collapsed
For almost two months, I’ve barely gone outside and can’t meet people
I don’t know if it can get better, if it will recover.. or what I should do..
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