Revision rhinoplasty is giving me such a headache

I got eye and nose surgery as soon as I turned exactly 20, and the silicone implant pierced through my skin, so I had it removed 5-6 years later because of the complication. Since then, I’ve just been living with only cartilage left in the nasal tip. Recently, a friend of mine got rhinoplasty and it turned out well, and seeing that made me jealous. I started wanting to put silicone in again. It definitely looks nicer when the nose is done with silicone But the surgery itself feels like such a burden, and when I think about the shape, side effects, inflammation, and stuff like that... my head starts hurting again and I don’t want to do it.. Ha, this is driving me crazy!!!.. I keep having more and more thoughts like, since I’m living anyway, I should live prettily, but also, I shouldn’t do something that will just give me unnecessary headaches When I had my first nose surgery, I explained in detail exactly the feeling I wanted, but they seriously didn’t understand even 1 bit, so it ended up not suiting me at all, which honestly still makes me furious. But I don’t want to get surgery there again, so I wonder if it was because I chose the wrong clinic. That’s why I’m looking into clinics to get revision rhinoplasty. The feeling I want is a bit hard to explain, but basically I want to bring out a glamorous-but-natural look that suits my facial features, you know? But if I say it like that, will the directors more or less understand? I don’t know. Or would I need a more detailed explanation? Should I bring photos? Usually, if the director has experience, I feel like they understand this kind of thing well, so I’m thinking of only visiting places with long experience. Recently, I looked into Jeongseok Plastic Surgery and Goksaem. Please look at my list and tell me how it was if anyone has had a consultation there. For now, I’m planning to go for consultations first like this!!