The budget is a little tight.. but this is something I can handle on my end, so even though it’s a bit of a stretch, I paid the deposit for revision surgery at ㅊㅇㅊㄹ
Since I’m pushing myself to do this, I hope the director fixes it properly... I already had a pointed, arrow-shaped nose, so ever since I was young my nickname was “fussy squid,” and even for my first surgery I paid a lot at a place known for being good at surgery... If it doesn’t turn out properly this time either, I might just think my nose has no hope, give up, and live with it.. I also had thoughts like, if only I had understood earlier when people said nose surgery never ends with just one operation, I wouldn’t have started at all, but then I also think, if I get the revision this time, my arrow-shaped nose will definitely improve.. my appearance complex will get better too.. so I feel kind of unsettled..
When I seemed hesitant, the consultant also said that the deposit is refundable, so if I need anything later, I should contact them without feeling burdened. When I was going around for consultations, I definitely had some kind of unexplained confidence, like, if I get revision surgery, it’ll definitely get better! But now that I’ve actually set the surgery date, I don’t know why I feel so uneasy ㅜㅜㅜㅜㅜㅜ
But then again, if I hadn’t had my first surgery, I feel like I might not have been able to live as brightly as I do now because of that appearance complex..? They say people always regret the choices they didn’t make, so I’m doing the right thing, right.. ㅜㅜ I really hope the surgery I’m having at ㅊㅇㅊㄹ this time will be the last one