Maybe I’m just unlucky. At least getting surgery at a large factory-style clinic was my choice, so I think of it as a problem I’ll have to carry for the rest of my life. I don’t hate myself for having naively thought, “Since it’s a factory, they must have a lot of experience, and surgery is all about experience,” just because I thought I could become a little prettier, but it really is a shame.
The surgery? To other people, it turned out well. Since it’s just my constitution that a mosquito-bite mark from over a year ago still remains dark, and a scar from an injury 30 years ago is still clear, I guess the doctor couldn’t do anything about the scar sitting so obviously in my sideburn area, which was already much shorter than other people’s.
Well, a scar can be covered with hair... but why can’t I tuck my hair behind my ear?
The ridiculous-looking face where my temples stuck out because my lateral cheekbones were reduced too much only stopped bothering me now, more than 3 years later and as I’m approaching 4 years.
Ah, now that I said that, I looked in the mirror... damn it, it’s bothering me again, so I should massage my temples a bit.
When I get Botox, they do go in temporarily. But then my square jaw comes out?
The human body is really fascinating, right?
The cheekbones weren’t the only thing I paid money to shave down... haha;;...
Yeah, well, with plastic surgery, if you look pretty, that’s all that matters, and I have no complaints on that point.
Except for the temples... but I’ve gotten used to it, so whatever... and there is a solution... Botox....
The sagging skin... I did gain a little weight recently. Though it’s only about 2 kg...
And more than 3 years have passed, too.
Whew... don’t worry, they still check my ID when I buy beer.
But not as often as before.
Is it because of the nasolabial fold lines that show faintly depending on the lighting...?
But I’m okay with that. It’s about time nasolabial folds appeared. I’m that age.
The people I really want to discourage are people like me, who don’t truly need it but do it for a slight upgrade.
Even before surgery, I was someone who was told that people’s anger would melt just by looking at my face.
No matter what gathering I went to or who I met, even if my other specs were just whatever, I was told that at least my face was good.
If your square jaw is extremely severe and your cheekbones rise up in all directions like a superconductor even when your face is expressionless, then it’s okay to get surgery.
But if, like me, you’re satisfied just by slimming your face by level 2 on the default beauty setting of a Samsung phone, I’m saying don’t do it.
From level 4 onward it gets ambiguous, but you figure that out yourselves... sigh...
Money? 7 million won?
For someone like me, unlucky enough to enter a company where my take-home pay doesn’t even reach 3 million won a month, it’s definitely a lot of money,
but still, if you save, that much does eventually come together.
But I keep thinking I could have done something better with that money.
Because I’m experiencing side effects from facial contouring.
Just before it had been 2 years since the surgery, I had all the titanium plates used for my facial contouring removed.
To be honest, I didn’t have the removal surgery for high-level reasons like not liking that there was something inside my body, or that it shows up on dental checkups.
Right after the surgery, something went wrong with the sensory nerves in my face.
To be exact, even if you prick my right upper lip and my right 45-degree cheekbone area with a needle, I don’t feel a stinging sensation.
I’ve never had orthodontic treatment, but in my lower teeth, the 4 front teeth, I feel something that makes me wonder if this is what it would feel like to wear braces.
My lower lip sometimes itches so badly I feel like I’ll go crazy, but scratching it doesn’t relieve it. It’s a kind of dull, muffled itch.
So I had the titanium plates removed...
In other words, I ended up getting what is commonly called pin removal surgery.
Um... it’s been more than a year and a half, plus more than 3 months, since I had the pins removed. Yes, it’s the 21st month.
What happened? Did sensation come back?
Would I have written this if it had?
Sensation is something I’ve felt my whole life since childhood, so I can’t say it’s at what percentage of normal,
but I don’t think pin removal had any particular effect.
At most, when I gently massage my chin tip, I no longer have that deep, aching pain like being pressed hard with a fingertip.
I also went to a university hospital in Seoul.
They said it was probably because the nerve was stretched too much during surgery.
This can only be a guess because
I went because, even after 2 years had passed since the surgery, and then another year had passed after pin removal, the sensation was still really strange and I couldn’t tolerate it anymore, so the examination happened 3 years later. I guess it couldn’t be helped.
Anyway, the university hospital said there was no way they could help.
They said that honestly, even if I had come right after the surgery, there probably wouldn’t have been anything they could do.
They even scolded me, asking why I had the surgery in the first place.
They said that looking at the surgical traces, it didn’t seem like there had been much improvement either.
They said it might get better if I keep massaging it from time to time and wait, or it might not.
Hmm... this is a university hospital’s prescription? But it’s true. They said there isn’t even medication
So what I want to say is
I just want to discourage people a bit.
People like me... people who undergo a major surgery called facial contouring for a slight upgrade.
Don’t do it.
Losing money. Losing sensation. Wasting the time it takes to recover. What is this?
Even people who knew me before didn’t know what had changed.
If I had spent that money on breasts or buttocks instead, at least the change would have been huge.
Even if I had bought a used car, I could have gone up one level.
If you live at your parents’ house, that money could cover a whole year.
Just buy luxury goods instead. Once you realize it, that’s the cost-effective item for raising self-esteem.
Sigh, this got long.
The end of the year is coming, and I have no one to meet, so I was lonely and browsing the internet,
and I came into a site I used to visit back and forth when I was looking up information, and wrote a bit of a venting post.
Thanks for reading this long post,
and let’s all become prettier and more handsome next year.
And you all. Don’t do it.