Fat grafting... this is unbelievable...;;;;

Phew... today I finally had fat grafting surgery... Actually, even until yesterday, I didn’t even think of fat grafting as a surgery... I was almost not nervous at all, but today when I changed clothes and went into the operating room, and pulled down my pants while the doctor used a pen to mark the area on my thigh where the fat would be taken from... I suddenly got incredibly nervous. All at once I became so bad that I couldn’t breathe, and in the end I almost fainted, so everyone got startled and laid me down... I was drenched in cold sweat and only barely calmed down enough to have the surgery;;; Fainting was something that seemed worlds away from me since I was born... And now I’ve even fainted once for the first time... haha;;; Since when did I become so weak... To everyone else too, don’t get too nervous before surgery^^; While we were talking about this and that, I went into sedation anesthesia... A white liquid went in, my arm got stiff like it had a cramp, and then I fell asleep~; After lying face down and having the fat removed, I was turned over again;;; and then more sedation anesthesia was given, so in fact I almost never woke up during the surgery; I’m glad I had the surgery without suffering... but it’s also an experience I never want to go through again... It started around 1:30... and now my stomach is suddenly feeling a little nauseous... not great~; But fortunately, both my face and thighs are hardly hurting at all~ I was worried because many people said the thighs hurt... but right now it just feels like my head is a little foggy^^;;;;; I also blurted out nonsense now and then... I said a lot of nonsense during the surgery too.. Like saying I’m good at enduring pain or that I remember the color of the doctor’s clothes... Thinking about it now, I’m so embarrassed Has anyone else had an experience like mine^^;;; Anyway, I came home after the surgery... Hmm... honestly, what I’m thinking right now in one word is... I feel depressed =.= I’m only 22, so I don’t really have nasolabial folds, and I didn’t look especially old for my age, but I have a slightly square jaw and a long face, so I went ahead with fat grafting to improve that. Even though my long face and lack of facial fat were disadvantages, my intellectual and calm impression was my strength, but now I don’t feel that at all;;;;;;; My eyes look smaller too, and my nose is buried so it’s become much lower and smaller... Ugh... in a word, I look uglier now My face isn’t especially swollen or anything... I had fat put into my whole face... but honestly, except for the forehead, just thinking about it now makes me regret it~ I heard the first day after surgery is when the swelling is relatively least... If it still looks like this even after the swelling goes down, I honestly think I’ll regret it a lot~;;;; Anyway, still, I’ve had my first fainting episode since birth;;; It’s been such a memorable day^^; I also have tutoring to go to this Friday The student won’t know, so^^; I guess I’ll just have to lie and say I had my wisdom teeth removed^^;;;; Anyway, for those of you planning fat grafting... Please think seriously about it. I do think the chance is pretty high that a mature, intellectual image will disappear a bit. It can make you look younger, prettier, and softer, though^^ Of course it’s still only day one, so I absolutely can’t judge yet... Anyway, I’ll see how it goes and upload photos if it turns out okay^^; Today is a day when I need to cheer myself on..