I originally had double eyelids with an outline crease, but the downside of these double eyelids was that if I didn’t put effort into opening my eyes and opened them in a half-closed way, the eyelid line would get too thick and make my face look really greasy.
So I went around opening my eyes with some effort so the line would look thinner...
But if I didn’t put effort into my eyes, it would come undone, and if I did put effort in, it would appear.
But I liked the line of my eye shape.
But because it kept appearing and disappearing, I got ptosis correction to try to strengthen the muscle that opens the eyes,
and the double eyelid formed lower than my original line (an in-out kind of feel).
But I couldn’t get used to it? My eyes felt strange to me.....
So I even thought about suicide because of my eyes. I became so ugly, how am I supposed to live in this world.. like that.
When people looked at me, I lost my confidence, and I couldn’t even look at them properly.
I lost confidence and felt depressed, so the owner of the shop where I work asked why my attitude was like this..
When I met friends and asked them.......
They said before was fine, but now is fine too... 4 people said this.
And the lady at the tteokbokki place I used to go to in high school said, “You got prettier.”
I met my high school friends, and even though my eyes had changed, they just greeted me, talked, and then bye bye (Maybe my impression didn’t change that much.. thankfully. Or it did change but they may have just said it out of courtesy.)
But I was so stressed about my eyes that I seriously thought about undoing the non-incisional ptosis correction or getting revision surgery.
I didn’t tell one friend I had double eyelid surgery and they didn’t know, and at work an older lady also said I have a pretty-looking face.
Ah, am I really overreacting too much?
If 4 people said that, they’re probably not just saying it out of courtesy but speaking objectively, right.????
I’ve even thought that I wish the buried-suture method would come undone on its own.
There’s no guarantee revision surgery would go well, and how would I handle the cost and waiting for the swelling to go down..
Really. I’m serious and sincere... Please give me some advice